I’ve decided to break up with my rheumatologist. I’ve been slowly coming to this conclusion over the last 8 months, now that I’ve been more ill than I’ve ever been with this disease, and I can see exactly how he has tried to help, or not help, as the case might be. I’ve been seeing this doctor for eight years now; I think that we should have enough of a relationship for him to know I’m not
just complaining, I’m in serious need of help. Yet, I feel like I’m chasing my tail with this guy. I feel like I can’t really depend on him in my time of need.
At last visit, he seemed to just throw his hands up in the air and say he didn’t know what else to do with me. Like, I was some disobedient child that was causing too much trouble. He suggested putting me back on the injectable I had just come off of in June, saying it might work again, but no other explanation. You can imagine my shock when he said this. I had just suffered through some of the worst pain I had ever suffered through on this medication, and he wanted me
to go back ON IT? Oh. Hell. No.
He had no other ideas, because we had tried everything, or so he thought.
I know I’m not the doctor, but I also know we had not tried everything. I had to remind him that we hadn’t tried Methotrexate, or Remecaid, which are two medications I know have worked for others. He seemed surprised that he hadn’t prescribed them yet, then immediately prescribed the Methotrexate. Uhmmm, okay? Did I just tell HIM what he needed to do for me? What is the point? Does this guy even read my chart before he comes in to see me?
I’ve been looking around online for different rheumatologists, and checking some websites to see how patients and other doctors rate them. There doesn’t seem to be enough data out there though. I don’t want to end up with another doctor who just prescribes meds to shut me up. I want a doctor who is generally concerned that I’m in a lot of pain and wants to help me. Maybe one who believes in the diet/RA connection? One who will offer advice on leading a different lifestyle,
maybe suggest meditation, or stress management, or SOMETHING. Does such a doctor exist?
I continue in my quest. I should have a new doctor by 2012. One last appointment with this doctor next month, and I’m done.